Placed and Pulled

It has been few years i laid in this place "Placed and Pulled".

I have been placed myself on surface many times, but something pushed me to go deeper .
I have been placed myself below the surface and then slept in it until today.
I have been placed myself deeper to feel how it felt, what would happen ?.
I have been placed myself and felt so comfy in it.

And now,
I am trying to pull it.
Everything i keep.
Not only the things but also the traces.

Will be it better ?
It is far, beyond my forecast.
Am i able to forecast ?
I am

Dissapointed, just an ending but the process just pain.