On bed after baked marble cake. I cant sleep, even 1.30 am rite now. I want to write what in mind tonigh: my dream then he will say : yes then I will write : love me please. But I dont have any brave and confidence to write that. I just write here posting, tears running down. Life already so mean to me. My life wont be that long. Who will stay and be with me when I cant do nothing ?