Allin

DEAR ALLIN,

WE JUST HAVE A BIT OF TIMES TO MAKE FRIENDS. WE JUST MEET IN DHARMAIS HOSPITAL IN SAME DOCTOR, DR NOORWATI, IN SAME CASES -DDIMER- . I REMEMBERED FEW MONTHS AGO YOU SAID YOU WILL GO TO SINGAPORE TO DO LAST OPERATION IN YOUR STOMACH, YOU HAD CANCER. YOUR EYES TALKED MANY THINGS, THE HOPE, THE AFRAID, THE EFFORT AND OF COURSE THE BELIEF TO BE CURED.

YOU HAVE LONG HAIR AND BLACK. YOU HAD LOST YOUR DAD SINCE KID. WELL, OUR WAITING LINE IN HOSPITAL WAITING ROOM ALWAYS CLOSE WHENEVER TIME IN MEET. YESTERDAY, WHEN I WENT THERE TO CONTINUE AND EVALUATE MY TREATMENT SOMEONE SAID TO ME "YOU KNOW A GIRL WITH LONG HAIR" I ASKED "WHO ?" NOT MUCH GIRLS IN THIS WAITING LINE "THE YOUNG ONE MAYBE THE AGE NOT FAR FROM YOU. I SEE YOU MANY TIMES TALK TO HER" I GOT IT IT MUST BE ALLIN, I DONT TALK AS MUCH AS WITH HER THAN ANYONE IN THIS ROOM. "ALLIN ?" THE WOMAN NOD "YES SHE IS. IT SOUNDS HER NAME. SHE PASSED AWAY MAYBE FEW WEEKS AGO. IN SINGAPORE, IN THE HOSPITAL AFTER THE LAST OPERATION. I MEET HER HUSBAND IN THIS HOSPITAL MAYBE LAST WEEK" 

I PAUSED, SILENT AND STARED IN LONG HALLWAY. "SHE GOT DDIMER AS LIKE AS ME. AND EVENTUALLY THE DOCTOR FOUND CANCER IN HER STOMACH. SHE HAD TAKEN CHEMOTHERAPY MAYBE ONCE OR TWICE. HAD OPERATION MAYBE TWICE OR THIRD AND THE LAST TIME SHE WENT TO SINGAPORE FOR THE BEST DECISION" 

THE WOMAN WHO THE AGE MAYBE 50'S SOMETHING HOLD MY HANDS. "IT'S THE BEST WAY FOR HER" I JUST SILENT. WHO KNOW IT WAS BEST WAY OR NOT. I DIDN'T TELL THAT WOMAN THAT I JUST DID MRI LAST MONTH AND ALREADY TOOK TREATMENT FOR RISK DIAGNOSED BLOOD CANCER. I WILL DO PREVENTION BEFORE IT GOES BE WORST. 

ALLIN, WE DONT HAVE MUCH TIME TO KNOW EACH OTHER. EVEN WE DON'T KNOW THE PHONE NUMBER EACH OTHER. I PRAY YOU ARE IN GOOD IN THERE. REST IN PEACE. YOUR PAIN JUST END AND MAYBE IT'S ALREADY WRITTEN AS GOOD WAY. 

I WILL DO WHAT GOOD FOR ME. AS LONG AS I AM ABLE.