My dream, why you doing this to me ? You never know how I through this. Dont ever dare to imagine how I through, you never can. I tired with all the tears, but I cant stop it. You said I am not doing anything, but I risk everything for you. I had given you everything, anything the heart, the love, the body, the soul, the life and live then I just let myself in pieces like a stupid. I want to scream even slap your face but I dont do because I know that not me. I am sick and I wont you and anyone feel pity to me. The pain and hurt which I willing to accept.

I am sorry. I cut my hair again tonight, the hair loss so terrible. The medicine for treatment I take so much effect to my hair. I already use anti hair loss serum but not help so I have to cut it to less the weight of hair so the loss wont be much. My hairs are going so thinner, not see as like as before.
A day will come when i will go so far, the far which cant reach and see by anyone.