Bussy month in february. Not only had ordered for savory snacks almost each week but also cakes and cupcakes birthday ordered. I just sleep just for two hours lately. Haaaa ####!!!!!!#### feel like an alien. As if my dream besides me right now i will ask him to massage my head until i fall asleep. Then when i wake up suddenly, i will ask him so same again amd again until maybe he feels grumpy. Hug, i just realize it is valentine day. I never celebrate it. Few years a go he sent me red flowers bouquet. I still keep the box and the dry flowers inside its. I could smile and cry ar same time remain all those moments especially when he was in UK before he left me for almost 3 years ago. Hug, good night my dream. Missing you badly.

"Are you happy ?" My dream asked me
"Seems i dont know what meaning of happy is" I answered
"What happen ?" He asked me again
"Nothing ... Is fine .. I just dont have 'me time' " i said

My happiness is with him. When he besides me, everything is enough. Want to hold your hands around my fingers, want to hug you, i really dont have much words. But i believe you realize how my heart is for you. Good night my dream, missing you so much, missing you more than you imagine.