RAINING OUTSIDE. I STILL LOVE RAINING. I LOVE THE SOUND AND THE SMELL WHEN FALL DOWN TO SOIL. WHAT MY DREAM IS DOING RITE NOW ? HOW IS HE RITE NOW ? HOW HIS STUDY ? HOW HIS HEALTH ? HOW HIS EAT ? I SUDDENLY CRY. I AM SORRY, I JUST MISS HIM. BUT CAN'T SAY AND SHOW IT. HOW IT FEELS AS BE ME ? LAST NIGHT I DREAMED ABOUT HIM. HE CARESSED MY HAIR AND SMILED, BUT I JUST CRIED. HE WIPED MY TEARS BUY WE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING. AND THATS IT. THE DREAMED JUST GONE IT SELF. I WOKE UP AND DIRECTLY PERFORMED SHOLAT. WHAT I REMAINED RITE NOW HIS ASKED "WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU HAVE CHANCE TO LIFE ONCE AGAIN ?" I JUST SAID "I STILL WANT TO BE RYZA, BECAUSE I WILL MEET YOU, TOGETHER WITH YOU" AS ALWAYS YOU HUG ME THAT MUCH.