LISTENING TO SARAH SARAH MCLACHLAN SONG ; 'ANGEL'. KHANSA JUST SLEEP BESIDES ME. HER SOUND AS LIKE AS A FROG. SHE STILL CANT BREATH WELL. IT ALWAYS HAPPENS WHEN SHE GETS FLU. I HAVE TO DO INHALATION FOR HER EACH 3 HOURS TO HELP HER BREATH EASILY. LAST SATURDAY I TRIED SOME NEW FOOD TO HER ; NOODLE, SAUSAGE AND CORN TOMATO SOUP. SHE SEEMED LIKE THAT FOOD EVEN IN VERY LITLE PORTION. SO HERE THE EFFECT NOW. SHE ALLERGIC WITH THOSE FOOD, MAYBE THE SAUSAGE CONTAINED EGG, AND SURELY THE NOODLE DID, AND THE SWEET CORN AND TOMATO... ABSOLUTELY THE MOST HINDER FOOD. ALLERGIC FOOD NOT HAVE TO HINDER WHOLE LIFE, SHE SHOULD TRY THEM BIT BY BIT.
MY SORE THROAT STAY SAME, PAIN TO EAT AND DRINK. BECAUSE I SO TIRED MUCH TAKING CARE KHANSA WHEN SHE SICK LIKE THIS. I REALY LOST APETITE. I REMEMBER WHEN I REALLY SICK LIKE THIS I ALWAYS AND ALWAYS ASK MY DREAM TO HUG ME. AGAIN AND AGAIN. I DONTDON'T KNOW WHY I AM STARTING TO CRY RITE NOW. I ALREADY TOO DEPENDENT TO HIM MUCH. HE IS SOMEONE THAT I ONLY HAVE AS MY MAN. WHEN HE WENT AWAY, I TRY TO SURVIVE. I AM ASKING MYSELF ; WHY I STILL BE THE SAME PERSON TO HIM, WHILE HIMSELF MAYBE ALREADY NOT THE SAME. I SUDDENLY REMEMBER WHAT MILA TELL ME ; WHY YOU STILL CRY, CARE, WORRY ABOUT HIM, HAVE YOU EVER WONDER, EVER THINK DOES HE DO SAME ? CRY, CARE, WORRY TO YOU ?. WHEN SHE SAY LIKE THAT, I JUST NOD DOWN MY FACE, I CRY AND MILA JUST HUG ME. I DONT KNOW HOW LONG SHE HUG ME UNTIL I STOP TO CRY THAT TIME. THIS HEART ALREADY TAKEN AWAY AND THE REST I FEEL EMPTY. THIS LOVE TOO MUCH DEEP. I AM NOT EASY PERSON TO SHARE ALL THE FEELINGS TO A PERSON, SINCE ELEMENTARY I USED TO WRITE FOR EVERYTHING WHICH CANT TALK AND SHOW UNTIL TODAY. I AM
GOING TO SLEEP. I WANT SAY WHICH I ALWAYS SAY TO MY DREAM ; MY DREAM, HUG ME.