SUDDENLY WAKE UP AT 12.21 AM. ITS PAIN. THE PERIOD COMES AND THE PAIN SLOWLY KILLED ME. THAT TOO MUCH :) YES ITS PAIN BUT NOT UNTIL KILL ME. PETER CETERA WITH GLORY OF LOVE WTH PIANO VERSION. I REMEMBER, WHEN I WAS KID I HAD PIANO COURSE, AT FIRST MAYBE I LIKE IT BUT SOMEHOW I CANT FIND MYSELF MORE GOOD IN IT, SO I STOP IT. I FIND MYSELF MORE COMFORT IN READING AND WRITING. I WROTE A LOT WHEN I WAS SCHOOL. I REALLY FORGOT WHO, WHEN AND WHERE MY STORIESIRS WERE BORROWED. SOME STILL IN MY MOTHER'S HOUSE IN MY ROOM ARE KEPT. WHEN I OPENED, I SAW MY WRITTEN SO IMAGINING. I REALIZE HOW CREATIVE I WAS. ALL THE BOOKS :) ALREADY MOVED IN MANY BOXES BY MY MOTHER, ONE DAY SHE SAID "I DONT WHERE I SHOULD PUT YOUR BOOKS?" I SEE SOME STACK BOXES IN STORE ROOM AT HOUSE AND I JUST SAID "I DONT KNOW TOO". I CAN BE IN MY ROOM ALL DAY IN READING AND WRITING. ANOTHER I CAN BE IN KITCHEN FROM MORNING TO LATE JUST FOR BAKING. I LIKE AT HOME THAN GO OUTSIDE. WHEN I GO SOMEWHERE, I USED ALONE. I AM NOT ALONER BUT I USED WITH THAT. I DONT HAVE MANY FRIENDS WHO CLOSE MUCH JUST FEW BUT LAST UNTIL TODAY. FROM LAST 7 YEARS I REALIZE I JUST HAVE ONE PERSON WHO ALWAYS BE MY PLACE TO SHARE, TALK AND HEAR. MY DREAM. HE IS NOT JUST MY BEST FRIEND BUT ALSO LIFE FOR ME. NOWDAYS ... I JUST HAVE MY WRITTEN AS MY PLACE. IS GOING LATE, MAYBE I SHOULD TRY BACK TO SLEEP, AND MAYBE THE PAIN MUCH BETTER WHILE
I AM SLEEPING. GOOD NIGHT BLOG. 

2 AM, I WAKE UP AND CANT BACK TO SLEEP. I AM RITE, I JUST HAVE MY 1ST DAY PERIOD TODAY AND IT FEELS PAIN. I STARTED MY DAY WITH BAD PAIN. AFTER TOOK BATH AND COOKED, I SAW 'THE LAKE HOUSE' ON CABLE TV. I CHANGED IT AT FIRST, BUT IN MINUTES I WATCHED IT UNTIL END. THE FIRST TIME I SAW THIS ORIGINAL MOVIE WAS FROM KOREAN MOVIE 'IL MARE'. IT WAS A WONDERFUL MOVIE. I HAD DREAM HOUSE AFTER WATCHED 'THE LAKE HOUSE' IT SHOWED THE HOUSE WHAT I REALLY WANT. THE STORY SO BEAUTIFUL, I CANT SAY IN WORDS. THE LAST TIME I SAW 'THE LAKE HOUSE' MAYBE AROUND NOVEMBER OR MIGHT BE DECEMBER LAST YEAR. I WATCHED IT MANY TIMES. SOMEHOW I WONT WATCH THAT MOVIE FOR A WHILE, I AM AFRAID OF LOVE MOVIES SINCE LAST DECEMBER SO I UNTIL TODAY I DONT WATCH ANY LOVE MOVIES. I WATCH ACTIONS AND CARTOONS. WHEN I WATCH 'THE LAKE HOUSE' I JUST SAW ME AS KATE AND MY DREAM AS ALEX. I DIDNT PLAN TO CRY, BUT TEARS JUST COME THEMSELF. THE STORY SO TOUCHING ME DEEEP. I SAW LETTERS, LETTERS AND MANY LETTERS IN MOVIE. JUST REMAIN ME ABOUT ALL THE LETTERS FROM MY DREAM. I ALREADY BURNT THEM ALL NOT EXCEPT THE CARDS. I REALLY CANT READ THEM ALL AGAIN, I AM AFRAID FEEL MORE PAIN. I STILL THE SAME PERSON TO MY DREAM. SOMEONE WHO I GIVE THIS HEART EVEN I NEVER MEET HIM. NO ONE KNOWS 'THE LAKE HOUSE' IS ONE OF THE MOST MOVIE I LIKE AND WATCH MANY TIMES. EVEN MY DREAM NEVER KNOW ABOUT THIS. 
WHAT I ALWAYS REMEMBER THE LINE OF THE MOVIE WHEN ALEX SAY TO KATE : DONT WORRY KATE, WE WILL BE TOGETHER IN TIME EVEN WE ARE FAR AWAY APART. I WILL FIND A WAY TO CLOSE TO YOU, TO TAKE CARE OF YOU.
WHEN THAT PART AND THE LINE CAME ON SCREEN, I SAID IN HEART SO BEAUTIFUL WORDS TO SAY.