12.31 AM AND STILL CANT SLEEP. I FEEL NOT GOOD. BIT HEADACHE AND PAIN ON BACK, WRIST AND FEET. AT NIGHT EVERYTHING SO SILENT I LIKE THE CALMNESS AND THE AIR. I AM LAYING ON BED, WATCHING KHANSA IS SLEEPING SO TIGHT. FROM LAST TWO DAYS SHE SAID HER TUMMY ACHE. TWICE VOMIT AND MADE ME WORRIED. SHE HAD NEW HABBIT, BITE HER NAILS. AND THATS NOT GOOD. MAYBE THAT NEW HABBIT MAKE HER TUMMY ACHE. I CANCELLED THE DOCTOR APPOINTMENT TONIGHT, AFTER SAW HER BACK TO NORMAL. ACTIVE ASLIKE NEW CHARGE BATTERY :) SO BEAUTIFUL WHAT I AM WONDERING RITE NOW. MY DREAM JUST COME TO HUG ME FROM BACK AND I AM CLOSING MY EYES, PRETENDING TO SLEEP SO HE NEVER LET GO THAT HUG. I COULD FEEL HIS WARM, SMELL AND BREATH. I WILL WAIT UNTIL HE REALLY SLEEP. SO THAT I COULD STARE HIS FACE WITHOUT HIS NOTICE. I WILL STAND NOT TO KISS HIM, NOT TO WAKE HIM UP UNTIL NEXT MORNING. HE WILL HAVE MY MORNING KISS AT FIRST HE OPEN HIS EYES. I WILL SEND DOA TO ALLAH TO TAKE CARE MY DREAM IF JUST I GO BEFORE HIM, HE IS THE BEST I EVER HAVE. MAYBE MY WONDERING TOO MUCH BUT I SINK IN ITS. I AM CRYING BUT I AM SMILING, MY WONDERING IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE.