“Being together isn’t about a honeymoon. It’s about the real you and me. I want to wake up with you beside me in the mornings, I want to spend my evenings looking at you across the dinner table. I want to share every mundane detail of my day with you and hear every detail of yours. I want to laugh with you and fall asleep with you in my arms. Because you aren’t just someone I loved back then. You were my best friend, my best self, and I can’t imagine giving that up again… You might not understand but I gave you the best of me, and after you left nothing was ever the same.. I know you’re afraid, and I’m afraid too. But if we let this go, if we pretend none of this ever happened, then I’m not sure we’ll ever get another chance. We’re still young. We still have time to make this right…We still have the rest of our lives.”

From the novel "The Best Of Me' by Nicholas Sparks

I can't remember when exactly i fall in love to you. Surely not the first time i see you, so it is not love at first sight. Loving you through the process. Knowing you more each day just making me again and again to love you. Can't stop it ... can't resist it ... can't keep and hide it anymore ... the years gone by just enough for me to keep for myself.

You give me love and care which i never feel before, all just make live in fairy which won't wake up for real. If this fairy, i want the end just beautiful as like the tale. If this real, i won't mind ... cuz everything is like real when i am wondering you. If this dream, i won't wake up too fast stay sleep cuz of the pills. And if this not true, i won't regret it cuz i am living within the risk.

There is a night, i just typed "Take me with you" but i just read, erased and delete it. All i see, there is a beautiful gift in my holding who hold my clothes so tight as like won't let me go. The only one daughter for i can sacrifice anything .... anything ... my life, my soul even my love for you. It conqueres everything. I can't go far and let her go ... i am just to afraid to loose her as being her mother if just i send that text.

If just, that day ... you come to take me before all of this. I wont say anything, i just go with you. Because i need your strength, braveness to take me while i too afraid and fear of anything. But, everything is too fast to happen. In my heart there still hope, wish, faith and believe with you.

I am far from perfect and special, being with you i feel all of these.

I love you,