My Dear Daughter, Khansa Amaira

Rite now, Bunda still on seat even lunch time just start. Looking your picture and watching your video. Bunda is missing and loving you so much, the only one reason which i stand for everything. For nine months you are with me, inside me. Feeling your move, wondering you look, and dreaming you beside me all the night. No matter what i have been through, the treatment and medication still the pain which i continue until today, those are worth it whenever i see you smile at me.

Only in few days exactly on June 3 you will be 8 months. Praying that i can see how you grow up each day. Can't wait hear you say "Bunda, khansa loves you", can't wait you hug me, can't wait to spend times and many things with you. 

Kisses,

Bunda

Like the sound of silence calling,
I hear your voice and suddenly
I'm falling, lost in a dream.
Like the echoes of our souls are meeting,
You say those words and my heart stops beating.
I wonder what it means.
What could it be that comes over me?
At times I can't move.
At times I can hardly breathe.

When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still inside and
For a moment, there's no one else alive

You're the one I've always thought of.
I don't know how, but I feel sheltered in your love.
You're where I belong.
And when you're with me if I close my eyes,
There are times I swear I feel like I can fly
For a moment in time.
Somewhere between the Heavens and Earth ,
And frozen in time, when you say those words.

And this journey that we're on.
How far we've come and I celebrate every moment.
When you say you love me,
That's all you have to say.
I'll always feel this way.

Do you know how I love you?

Whether is right or wrong, 

want to say 'love you'

Why saying that words quite hard ?

Maybe afraid to going deeper ... fearful to hurting

Why should be afraid which is not necessary ?
Why should cry for what shouldnt be ?

When day turn then sun change into stars, the presence still same

If it is not me, will be another here after
and ... if it is not you, will be the one after this

There wont be place for hiding all what feel
Everything will burst in pieces

An empty on my own

With you, aslike filled in