Unfilled

We are on line, feeling so quite "What are you really doing rite now ?" i asked, "Reading your letter" he answered. I smile "You like it ?" i asked "So much" he answered, "That much until i tear apart n ready to burn them". I pause, freeze and long silent "You know what i hate ? this reality and i cant longer live in fading whole life". I still silent, cry and hurt. "I don't know how you try to understand". As if i was there, would hug him and make he feels that i am really into him. "Don't forget to burn them OK" i fix the voice and call off the line.

 

Leave everything behind, realize my self that everything has to change. The eyes tired of tears, the heart weary of memories, and the feeling burning in lost. So many years had been through which to divide what is real and dreaming.  

 

It should happen long before, before that deep, before that long, before make as like meat and blood.

 

Stop to dream mean no dream anymore, Until a day it says "I miss you", no smile, no tears, no hope and no wish anymore. "I miss u" again he make it clear his words. Remain how many messages had ignored before and i cant feel anything. "Can you say anything ?", I just stare him, deep and longing. The love never change for him "I am lost" i say in forward.

 

Empty that's all the feel.  

Tired Of Tears

I feel his warm at once ever, hug him tightly. "You come" Whispered to his ear. Slowly caress my hair and feel how he nod. I stare to his eyes, smile "I love you" tears on my face. He wipes it and smiles back at me "I love you". We kiss slowly, long and deep seems like it won't last. "I want you" he says still with eyes closed. I push myself to him, pull me tightly to his body "I need you" he whispers on my ear. I feel that words weaken all my defense and waken all the hunger of him. We stare each other in long and deep. Feel the breath, listen the heart beat which going fast and running. I so much want him.

 

I look down to his chest, hide all the tears. "No tears, i am with you" he caress my face gently and kiss my eyes. Again looking into his eyes deeply. "Break them all" i say in low, hold his hands gently. "How much you want it ?" he asked, "So much" i said, "How much you keep it ?" i asked, "A lot" he answered.

 

Slowly caress my neck then kiss it "who are you ?" i feel his doubt, feeling his lips on my neck "yours" he stopped. Take my head to his hands, meet his forehead to mine. Unbutton my clothes then carry me in his holding. "You are mine just mine" i wipe his tears.

 

Day no longer day, night no longer night. The day appears into ice, the time click into freeze. Feel the warm which i am longing, feel the relieve which i imagine, feel the completeness which i wait ... with him. Laying on his arm, touch his hair, tears slowly running down "i love you". He response it, pull me to his holding ... its too perfect to be real ... too perfect for us.