The Secret of Luck - Interisting

Wish i always in luck, 'cause i have own ratio in life : 25% is effort, 37.5% is fate, and rest 37.5% is luck. How hard effort I made, it would be nothing if God didn't give me luck and write as my fate.

Why do some people have all the luck while others are perpetually unlucky? Professor Richard Wiseman of the University of Hertfordshire was determined to get to the scientific bottom of the phenomenon of luck, and what he discovered may surprise you :

I placed advertisements in national newspapers asking for people who felt consistently lucky or unlucky to contact me.

Hundreds of extraordinary men and women volunteered for my research and over the years, have been interviewed by me. I have monitored their lives and had them take part in experiments. The results reveal that although these people have almost no insight into the causes of their luck, their thoughts and behaviour are responsible for much of their good and bad fortune. Take the case of seemingly chance opportunities. Lucky people consistently encounter such opportunities, whereas unlucky people do not.

I carried out a simple experiment to discover whether this was due to differences in their ability to spot such opportunities. I gave both lucky and unlucky people a newspaper, and asked them to look through it and tell me how many photographs were inside. I had secretly placed a large message halfway through the newspaper saying: 'Tell the experimenter you have seen this and win $50'.

This message took up half of the page and was written in type that was more than two inches high. It was staring everyone straight in the face, but the unlucky people tended to miss it and the lucky people tended to spot it.

Unlucky people are generally more tense than lucky people, and this anxiety disrupts their ability to notice the unexpected.

Since Beginning, Right Now and Later This Love Will be Remain and Still Same

“No, I won’t through this with you anymore. Just go !”
“What are you talking about ? are you sick or something ?”
“I am fine, I just want you to let me go”
“What is wrong ?”
“Nothing wrong”
“So … what made u said so ?”
“Because … ‘cause …. You are not good for me”
“Not good for you ? Oh … what mean of all this”
“No mean. Just let me go. I have to go”
“Where do you want to go ? Let me come with you”
“Ohh … stop it. It is enough, let me go … just … let … me … go …, you are not good enough for me”
“If you want so, I will go”
“Ya, I want so …, I am going now … “
Her shadow already went along with dark night. He felt his heart aching but once beat faster. He just know, it will happen … but please not now …, why should happen when he feels love at first time. He had felt in love with young widow. That is a problem, he had felt in love with a widow that called forbidden love.

One year passed

“Come on Jake, don’t make me wait too long “ his friend, Andri, suddenly come beside him “Yes sure, so … where would be going tonight ?” asked Jake. “How about … uhm … Bugs Café” Jake nods to show agreement. “And please, don’t ask Alice to come in”, “Why Jake ? it is okay to take Alice with us. Please … I need your help tonight. You know … where Alice goes there will be Jemima also. I like Jemima, just help me bit tonight Jake, I like Jemima … make this easy” Jake rounds his eyes once “Oh you are …, you are using me just because you want Jemima. Okay … this time … I help you. You really count me much about this”. Andri face looks more round than before “That friend is for … okay … let’s go. They are waiting us”.

Minute by minute pass by alike hour turn hour. “So … have your mom told you that I will stay here ?” Alice smile sweetly to Jake “Stay here ? what you mean ?” asked Jake. “Jake, Alice told me that she would work here”, Jake looks to Andri to make sure that Andri won’t tease him. After looked Andri’s face, he was sure that Andri serious “Work here ? uhm … what make this … “ Jemima interrupts Jake “Alice will live in my apartment. She had considered to work here”. “Oh … that is nice” Andri smiles to Jemima, too sweet. “Oh … like that. So have plan ?” Jake feels he loose his words “Not much, I just got job at magazine as staff editor” answered Alice. Jake saw how enthusiast Andri heard that, but wasn’ too important for him. Since beginning his mom asked him to dating with Alice. Alice is an independent girl, smart, sweet and nothing less value with her. He had known Alice since in college, she is good so far. He convinced his mom about their relation that they were good friend not more than that, but everything was useless.

“Mom, why you don’t tell me that Alice will move here ?” Asked Jake to his mother on phone, “I just want to make surprise for my only one son” replied his mother. Only one son, seem heard that he has been lonely so long. After his father died, his mother looked dominated his life totally. “Ouw, it is worked then”. “Come on Jake, lovely … she is nice more than nice, she is an excellent girl for me. I hope in same way with you also. What is wrong with her Jake ?”. “Nothing Mom, she is … just … perfect” oh … perfect, honestly it is not one word which he consider to say. “See, she is perfect right. So I just hope, her plan to move here, will make you both more close. Jake … look … I want the best for you. Since you were born I have given you best and for the last I want you live in best also”. The best … she said the best, oh seems her said just make his stomach turned upside down. “I know … but give me … another option”.
“Option ? what you mean with another option Jake ?” asked her mother with low voice. “Mom, you had tutored me since long, just look at me know. I am 30 this year, at least just give me space to find my own option. Especially with that I love” answered Jake. He realized, it was a first time for him to say so. “I am not mean like that. You want you have another option to find. Like you had before, when you date with that woman, that widow … come on Jake. Look you, look at me as your mother, look your dad, look our family. Is she good enough for you, for me and for you dad ?. You have bright future Jake, and I won’t that widow to be my daughter in law” “Mom … that widow has a name, Ava. And she is enough for me, everything is enough for me if I have her with me” “Stop it Jake, you start to hurt your mother. Forget her, and please consider Alice. Because I want her as your wife” suddenly the phone put off.

6 Months Later

“Good evening Mr. Jake”
“Good evening, so what you have for me ?”
“As much as you want. So … she has florist store beside on pacific ocean building. Her daughter name is Mara who is in elementary grade three this year. She lives in small house town which is name the village number 6. Is the information enough ?”
“Too much, okay, my secretary will transfer the payment. Thank you for your good job”
“You are welcome”

Watch has showed 7 pm, he let his car engine shut down. From this far, he can see that florist store. Not too big and luxury just simple but elegant. Then … after an hour waited in parking lot, finally he can see what he really want to see since long. Ava. He sees Ava, get out from the florist store. She still same with long deep burgundy hair, her walks, her size, especially her eyes who always pure and bright …. everything still same. With all his brave, he get out from his car then walks toward Ava.

“Ava” Ava turns her body then suddenly stiff in a minute. She turns her body back and walks faster
“Please Ava … wait “, she can feel Jake already grabbed her right hand
“Oh my God, what are you doing ? I had said to you clearly that time, I want you go away from me”
“I am not go. But you, the one who go. I know you have moved, but I never known you have been moving and living here. In this city the same city where I worked in”
“So, do you think it is a fate … we meet here ?”
“You can say so” “Jake…, what you expect from me huh ?”
“I am not expect too much” “It is good, because you can’t expect that much, even bit. Look Jake, I am a widow with one daughter who has in elementary grade three. I am not rich, not famous even not pretty. So what make you hard to let me go, what is hard for you to do that?”
“Because I am too fool to still love you” She feels her body is stiff and freeze “Jake, what for you still keep that love, it is impossible for me, for you, even for your mother”
“It is not impossible for me, for you even for my mother. I love you Ava and still like that, since beginning, right now and later” Jake walks more close to Ava, in this close he can see Ava really still same
“I miss you, really, that much, I can’t let you go. Is it wrong to fall in love with a widow ?” “Nothing wrong to fall in love with a widow but it will be most tragic for your mother. Jake please, you are too important for your mother, don’t hurt her feeling just because of me. Just … forget me. I know Alice is better for you”
Ava start to walk hinder Jake, she presses her alarm button to open her car key lock,
“Alice … wait, what have you known about Alice ? Oh … what my mother has told you ?” “Nothing” answered Ava short
“What is nothing” Jake holds the car door,
“What … you hide for me?”
“Oh Jake I don’t hide any. Please Jake, I want to live in peace far away from kind of this matter” “What is nothing ?” once again Jake holds the car door.

In few minutes, they are in silent “Your mother asked me to go away from your life, she said to me, as a mother we know we want the best for our son and daughter. She said that you will be marry with Alice, even I never know what Alice is like. But I am sure, she is must be a good one for you. So Jake, everything is over. If I have to choose, I prefer to hurt you than hurt your mother. Come on Jack you know, and I know, your mother won’t me” “
She said so. That’s why that night you ruin everything”
“Jake, let me and my daughter live in peace”

3 months later

“I can’t do this any longer Mrs. Anne”
Alice sits beside Jake mother and holds her right hand
“I like Jake that much, but Jake not feels like that”
“Alice, don’t say that. It usually happen with couple who will be marry”
“No, it is different. Jake doesn’t love me. I can’t stand longer with that” “Jake will love you by time”
“I don’t know. Jake is a good person, why you don’t try to understand him ?”
“Oh, what are you talking about ?”
“You never give him option to choose, Mrs. Anne. You make Jake no choice to choose. When I asked him, why you choose this major he just said ‘cause my mom want this, then, why you build this company he just said ‘cause my mom want this, why you do this to me, he just said ‘cause my mom want to do so, until I asked why you want marry me you know what he said, he said because his mom said you are best for me. Mrs. Anne, you know how hurt I am heard that, even the way he has value based on your own value”
They silent in few minutes, “I am sorry to say this, but I can’t marry with Jake”

Ava sit in her terrace home, at once she nods down to see her daughter on her lap. She caresses Mara’s hair slowly, sings her favorite lullaby. “Mom, I miss dad” Mara holds her waist tightly “Yes, I miss him also. He is a pilot Mara, he must be on sky every time to watching us. Don’t worry. Yes, but I never seen him, how does he like ?”. Ava holds her breath seems cut off on her throat. “He is a god man, he is a good pilot. He always caresses you when you here, in my stomach. He loves you much Mara”, “Wow cool … then is he handsome or cute” Mara laughed. “Yes, he is. Have you seen his picture?”, Mara nod “He is too great. You know mom, even dad had placed on sky but I want to feel how does it like to have a real father ?”

“The like is still same the way you have me as your mother Mara”, “Oh … is it like that ?. But I feel it won’t be same mom. Look Vara, Catherine, Nuri and Gaily, their fathers always drop them every morning and train them how to swim”, one by one Mara tell her friends at school and it makes her heart aching. As if and as if … Mara’s wishes just become real when Jake still beside us. “I can do that also, I also drop you at school, teach you how to swim and … “ Mara interrupts “Mom … still won’t be same. But it is fine. I don’t need any father anymore, I have you is enough for me”

The store not too busy this day, every order already sent. So Ava can be relaxed bit, she sits and starts to make list what should buy this month. The most buy this week is white lily, she continues to write. “Nice flowers” hearing someone comes into her store, she stop writing and stand up. “What can I do for you Madam ?”, “Uhm … looking simple and nice flower for a gift”, “Uhm … okay, how about this, white iris flower”. Ava takes one iris flower and shows to that woman “It is nice Ava” Ava surprised. How that woman knows her name. Slowly that woman put off her hat and smiles at her. “Mrs. Anne…?” “Ava … Iris flower is right choice”. Ava feels her heart bit faster and worry why she can be here. “I will make this easy Ava. My intention to come here, to ask you and your daughter Mara to come to our house” “I am not in game anymore Mrs. Anne” “No … no … I am not mean like that. I can say … please come to my dinner invitation, and will be nice to ask Mara with you” “Even you know my name daughter, what mean all about Mrs. Anne. I think the last talk with you is enough for me. I won’t disturb your life, I mean you and Jake” “Please Ava, just say … I have realized I make mistake that times. Any chance for me to fix that ?” “What do you mean ?” “Ava, Jake, my son, loves you much. I can’t do any to erase you from his heart, you mean a lot for Jake. Ava … let we fix together, would you ?” “What for, Alice … ? “ Mrs. Anne interrupt Ava “We won’t be marry Ava. Jake just need you, he just want you. And as his mother, it is my job to fulfill that. Here this my address in this city, I will wait you at 8 pm. It is surprise for Jake, make sure you will come tonight. Really Ava … I am sincere do this. I will let my son has his own option. I am sure, you won’t disappointed me and Jake. See you Ava, and thank you for this white iris, I will take this” Mrs. Anne leaves her name card on table.

The watch signs 7.45 pm

“Mom, where will be go ?”
“To my friend’s house”
This house unfamiliar with me mom, whose belong this house ?”
“Mrs. Anne and Jake”
Mrs. Anne and Jake ? I never heard that name before”
“You will see them when we come in. So .. are you ready Mara?” Ava sees Mara nods once, showing her ready. Mara holds Ava fingers, wonder what will happen in there.
"So, you are coming Ava, thank you” Mrs. Anne opens the front door and hugs Ava carefully, “Thank you Ava. To forgive me and give Jake another chance” Slowly she hears Mrs. Anne cries in low voice,
“Please come in. oh … look … this beautiful one, you must be Mara” Mrs. Anne look to Mara and smiles at her “Yes, I am Mara. And you madam ?”,
“So sweet Mara, just call me granny Anne”. Mara makes narrow eyes “Granny Anne, but you not look granny yet”
“Mara … your behave please” Ava whispered to her ears. But look, what Mara said just make Mrs. Anne laughed a lot. Suddenly she holds Mara and Ava hands together, and they start to come in. They enter into middle of the house, “I will take Mara with me, don’t worry. You see Jake right there, he is not notice you here. He is become man year by year, go see him Ava”.

She just wonder what had been happened. Why she came to this house, the invitation, taken Mara with her and so on. Why she want to do this. Why … she just believe that. From this far, she can see how Jake look alike. As usual he always calm, one person who still in heart and always she miss every night. Day and night she just want to think logic and realistic that their forbidden love was just ended, but look now. There is a chance for them to make their dream real.

“Jake” Jake takes his head up slowly and turns his body
“Ava ?” slowly Ava walks close to Jake
“Don’t ask any why I am here, ‘cause I have no answer” she smiles to Jake “
Your mother invites me and my daughter, Mara, to have dinner with you and your mother”
“It is … “ Ava interrupts Jake,
“Jake, would you hug me ? I am too miss you much … I just feel stiff right now” Jake step his foot one, she sees Ava really close at him, as close as that time, he kisses Ava right eye once,
“I miss you that much also. I won’t see your tears, God already listened all my pray day and night”
“What is your pray ?” “
I want you back as mine, you are my first love and will be my last one”
“You are not my first but I want you for my last” Ava can see that smiles, happiness, from Jake face. Jake hugs her slowly, “There is one that you should know Ava” “
What is that ?”
“Since beginning, right now and later this love will be remain and still same” “And there is one that you should know Jake”
“What ?”
“When I have found you, everything is enough for me”

Ryza Febriasty

It Is a Secret - Whisper

I wish I could tell you how much I care
but all I can do is sit and stare.

I don't know how to explain this pain
it's driving me crazy
not being able to let it out-
I think I'll go insane.

You are special to me
in so many different ways
I don't know exactly
what sets you apart from the rest
but you've stolen my heart
straight from my chest.

It was locked with a key
opened only by me
'cause I didn't want to let anyone else in
but I opened it to you and let you in
and again over my mind my heart wins.

A feeling this strong can't be ignored
my heart has been whispering... have you heard?

Josie Doolan

When Distanace Talking - Distant

I can't see you

I can't smell you

I can't touch you

And I can't feel you

But, somehow, I know you're there.

A distance, so brutally far

A feeling, so uncomfortably near

It fills me with want and desire

And I realize - I must not conspire.

I cannot think and can't imagine

I fear if I do it will make me closer

While you remain out of reach

And probably with someone else...I know I could be her... if I was there.

I can't see you

I can't smell you

I can't touch you

And I can't feel you

But, somehow, I know you're there.

I long to hear your voice once more

In the past it filled me with exhilaration

And then left me in despair.

Fill my soul once more with your proper tone

And then jerk it away, as we say, "So long".

I want to know feelings

I never felt before

But will I ever experience your gentle touch again?

Or your warm breath against my neck,

As you solemnly whisper, "I love you, I need you."

But.............
I can't see you

I can't smell you

I can't touch you

And I can't taste you

But, somehow, I feel I could.

Why does my heart beat so rapidly

At one little thought of you?

Why do I need for you to touch me, hold me

Pleaures I could never know....

I want you to teach me the wonders

I've never known and take me to levels

Never seen before by my quivering soul.

I can't see you

I can't smell you

I can imagine

And I can't touch you.

Somehow I feel we're beyond that
We are two- united from the start

Meant to teach, to love, to comfort, and caress.

I could never let go of you

Even though there is nothing to grasp.

Even if it fades over time

It could never fade completely

And, one day,

when I do see you.....I'll feel it's you,

I'll know it's you

The love, pain, worries, and curiosity

Will run through me once again.

Then.....
I Will see you

I Will smell you

I Will feel you

I Will taste you

But, somehow... it won't be the same.

Elizabeth Higgins

Happy Mothers Day, Mom

I feel lucky because until i am breathing right now, my mother still alive. A person who always care and love me without reason, reply and limit. As usual here in Indonesia, we celebrate mothers day on December 22. Don't have much and expensive gift for them, but valuable care and love are most important for them. As a girl, but not yet woman, i know how precious women are. What make one nation full of respect is based on women it self. Happy mothers day, mom and for all mothers over the world, your exist never can't count.

On Mothers Day, pay your most humble tribute to Mother!
Mothers are everything for us when we are small...our lives revolve around her. For everything that we need we call mother. To protect us from all perceivable dangers we want her around us. To take us out we hold her arms. To kiss away our wounds we run to her. And for a warm hug and love we look for her. She is the focal point of our lives, the greatest human being in the world or should we say divinity on earth. On the special occasion of Mothers Day pay tribute to your mother - the greatest blessing of God on you.

On Mothers Day Thank your Mother
There is simply no way we can ever really thank mother for all she has done for us. She is the one who will be awake all night when we are sick. Praying to God to make us well and be ever ready to bear the pain that we may be experiencing. She is the one to wake up early in the morning to make the nicest tiff in and endure all our tantrums. Mothers are the ones who would forever complain that we are not eating enough or not eating right. They would cook all sorts of things so that we be strong and healthy. Mothers in fact, worry more for our examinations than we must. They would take pains to complete our school projects leaving all other works behind while we play around with friends or just while away time watching movies.

On Mothers Day Apologize to your Mother

Mothers are the one on whom we put all the blame for our failures. We would not hesitate once to point her single faux pas though she would not miss even a slightest opportunity to praise us. Isn't it tough to imagine how she must have borne our temper tantrums when we were teenagers. And how hard we must have made her life by behaving so rude and difficult. And yet she was so astonishingly cool. It is easy for the kids to be so demanding from parents, specially mothers as we take her affection and care so much for granted. Most often to the extent of selfishness. Mothers Day is the right time to apologize for all the troubles that we gave to our moms, without even realizing at most times how troublesome we must have been to her.

Celebrate Mothers Day with your Dear Mother
Mothers Day is the perfect day to celebrate the joys of having a mother. It is the time to make amends for not being able to spend quality time with her. So turn your wrongs right by making all efforts to give a perfect Mothers Day to your mother. Think about her likes and dislikes about gifts and idea on celebration and act accordingly. Strive to make Mothers Day absolutely hassle free for your mother and take the responsibilities on yourself for a day. Pamper her a little on this special day of hers just as she pampers you all the year round. Give her a warm hug and a big kiss as you wish her a Happy Mothers Day!

Fascinating

When Animals in Love

Twilight Ebook Series for Free Download

I have read this novel at first time on internet, "Wow ... it is such a really ... very ... hmmh ... nice", I just said that after ended my last page. Then ... Oh ... this story seems haunted me again and again not only the romance but also the sacrifice it was. How love can conquer evil or bad things i just called that 'sacrifice'. What made me Hilarius about Staphanie Meyer, the author, she was a mother from 3 kids with high level of imagination. I felt so ... so ... glad when i saw an article on yahoo about Twilight on the screen. Off course i didn't scream that time but I felt restless to wait Twilight will be aired, specially here in Jakarta - Indonesia. Tada .... so ... have i watched ? OFF COURSE I HAVE.

Silly thing i did after watched Twilight was, i just more believed that vampire existed, they could be like us - human- who have feeling. Alike i really believe that mermaid exists. Nice things will be more nice to share right, so here this the ebook you can download, just click on it :

MEYERStephenie-Twilight01-Twilight.pdf
MEYERStephenie-Twilight02-NewMoon.pdf
MEYERStephenie-Twilight03-Eclipse.pdf
MEYERStephenie-Twilight04-BreakingDa.pdf

Will It Happen ?

I read this article from discover channel website. I excited, off course i was, because not only i love bear much but also there was hope for me that bear can live longer in their endangared surrounding. Here this article that i read about.

I've totally underestimated polar bears. For a couple of years now I've been saying that polar bears are doomed; that no matter what we do today, the titanic momentum of the global warming freight train is already sufficient to melt the Arctic sea ice and end the polar bear way of life. But happily, these bruins may be far more adaptable then I expected, according to a release today from the American Museum of Natural History about new research published journal Polar Biology.

Here's the gist: Earlier spring thaws in Hudson Bay are a boon to nesting snow geese, which in turn are producing loads of eggs. Polar bears are on a culinary collision course with this earlier, land-based and increasing food supply -- which is ironically triggered in part by global warming. It's sure a wild and crazy planet! Here's more from the press release:
When bears switch to the tundra in some areas, they may enter the nesting grounds of snow geese. Goose eggs and developing embryos are a highly nutritious source of food to opportunistic foragers. Although geese populations were in decline in the early 1900s, the population rebounded and expanded. There are now too many geese for the Arctic to support in the summer, mainly because their over-wintering habitat has increased to cover the northern plains, where they eat waste corn and forage in rice fields.

The bottom line is that it's about, which is controlled by climate.

Current trends indicate that the arrival of polar bears will overlap the mean hatching period in 3.6 years, and egg consumption could become a routine, reliable option. At this point, a bear would need to consume the eggs of 43 nests to replace the energy gained from the average day of hunting seals. But within a decade, because timing changes would put bears in contact with even more nests with younger embryos (younger embryos are more nutritious), a bear would only need to consume the eggs of 34 nests to get the same amount of energy....

...(Robert) Rockwell and his graduate student, Linda Gormezano, calculated that the rate of change in ice breakup is, on average, 0.72 days earlier each year, and that hatching time is also moving forward by 0.16 days each year. Current trends indicate that the arrival of polar bears will overlap the mean hatching period in 3.6 years, and egg consumption could become a routine, reliable option. At this point, a bear would need to consume the eggs of 43 nests to replace the energy gained from the average day of hunting seals.

In fact, the bears are already at the eggs...

“Over 40 years, six sub adult male bears were seen among snow goose nests, and four of them were sighted after the year 2000,” says Rockwell, a research associate in Ornithology at the American Museum of Natural History and a Professor of Biology at City College at City University of New York. “I’ve seen a sub adult male eat eider duck eggs whole or press its nose against the shell, break it, and eat the contents. This is similar to a different research group’s observations of polar bears eating Barnacle Goose eggs on Svalbard, an island near Norway.”

Amazing

Gloomy rain and thick gray cloud above Jakarta before raining. I took these photos from office window on 6th floor, where i worked in. I just thought whirlwind came as issued as pople talked and was fussy around past few days.

Thick gray cloud was above istiqlal mosque. I realized as human we were nothing on eye's God, but God was everything for human.