...he said that ?...

Raining ... make me stay at home all day. Feel the breeze air touch my skin and cool air sneak slowly between my curtain. Feel glad to stay in my room when rain come, from this height i can see how the water fall down and hear the sound clearly. Few hours ago, i read SMS from my best friend (let me shorten the contain was) 'Za, he said his true feeling for me while i was out from taxi, he said that he liked me'.

Few minutes i paused and read again to make me sure, i sighed and whispered, 'I know this will be happen sooner or later. Being friend just an option but falling in love really beyond human control'. I can't write anything to reply what she sent, i consider to describe what i want to tell her here. Right after i finished, i would send her SMS 'Can't say anything just read my post for you'.

So ... finally he said something that you never wonder before or could be you had already felt kind of strange feeling before. Then what you will do afterwards ? If i were you, i would feel thankful because he said that. But i can't move on with his feeling, it will be good to make him as a good friend. Want to know why i tought so ; 1st, Both of you too good as friend, do you want to take any risk if someday you might loose him cause of broken ; 2nd, You are in same company with him which prohibit employee as husband and wife ; 3rd, What you need is someone who mature enough in thinking ; 4th, Do not be silly to take wrong mind to repeat what have you did in past ; 5th, Don't you know exactly that his parents already set a girl, do you? Don't take matter of it ; 6th, Is him that are you looking for ... who can make you not recall 2 persons (you know what i mean) ; 7th, He is a right man who can make you put out your mind in working, stressful and bad mood, please do not change his position ; 8th, you know for sure that his placement in Sorong, are you ready for that, as i know is quite hard for you to have long distance relationship, are you ? ; 8th, Ohhh, widy must be cried a lot if she know about this (ha3x...) ; 9th, Still ... ; i consider Xurxo or Kareem so far (smile) ; 10th, Whatever is, feel thank u to know how his feeling so far.

Wow ... so Sincere The Statement is

"I think i told you about it once, did not i ?I have parents, but i never had a real home. Perhaps that's why I am so anxious to have my own house. I want a place where I can be with you. I want to plan a home by myself, and I want to create it with my own hands. I do not care how small it is, so long as it is a place of our own where I can always feel at ease"

Space for Bear Again

She Knows How to Get Poeple Talking, Always

A recent video clip surfaced online on August 23 of Yoon Eun Hye singing a “Salad song” (which indie-electronica band Humming Urban Stereo first recorded; song below).

Pooh & Friends

Look ... is about bear again ... , fiction bear who always wear red short shirt. Like to eat honey until he can't stand to walk even stand because his stomach too full. Sometimes Pooh seems like gloomy bear but really he has nice and helpful heart. With his 3 friends are Eeyore a donkey, Piglet a rabbit and Tigger a tiger always together to cheer up Christopher Robin's life who is a boy lives near Pooh & Friends.

In my room there is a sticker wall picture Pooh & Friends which circle all over my wall-room even my mom said looks like a kid play room because of it. Pooh piggy bank, sometimes i filled in with small coins. Small Eeyore bag, of course i never use that anymore, i do not want people stare at me when i bring that donkey. Old case pencils & pens which remain me when i was a student. Small Pooh phone charm had accompanied me since long. Water drink bottle, i still bring that to the office. Small hair accessories which i keep even i never wear that anymore.

There are some fun facts of Pooh & Friends that i just know shortly (ref. nypl.org & enterpriseportal.com) :

The curious name of Winnie-the-pooh come from Christopher Robin, from a combination of the names of a real bear and a pet swan. During the 1920s there was a black bear named "Winnie" in the London Zoo who had been the mascot for the Winnipeg regiment of the Canadian army. "Pooh" was the name of a swan in When We Were Very Young.

Pooh was purchased at Harrod's department store in London and given by A.A. Milne to his son Christopher Robin on his first birthday, August 21, 1921.

He was called Edward (proper form of Teddy) Bear at the time.

The rest of the toys were received as gifts by Christopher Robin between 1920 and 1928.

Not only Christopher Robin played with the toys; so, apparently, did the family dog, which may have contributed to their well-worn appearance.

The baby kangaroo stuffed animal (named Roo) was lost in an apple orchard during the 1930s.

Eeyore was x-mas present to Christopher Milne-The stuffed animal's neck had lost its stiffening over time taking on morose appearance, which served as inspiration of AA Milne's Character.

Winnie-the-Pooh had adventures with Piglet, Eeyore, Kanga, Roo, Owl, Rabbit, and Tigger in the 100 Aker (Acre) Wood (based on the Ashdown Forest in southern England, located near the Milne family home).

Owl and Rabbit were brought to life to join Pooh and pals Eeyore, Piglet, Kanga Roo, and Tigger, by Milne and illustrator Ernest H. Shepard.

The stuffed animals range in height from 25" (Eeyore, the biggest) to 4 1/2" (Piglet, the smallest).

Always said "There is any honey ?"

Pooh & Friends had already accompanied world since long become legend as other disney characters as mickey mouse and disney princess. And i am sure my kid even grand children will still remain them, because they are ever lasting characters.

I Love Bear Much

STAN Brevet Tax Course

Taken by Retno, on August 16, 2008, at Soeryo Cafe

It just snapshot video which taken by Retno (my friend). I really did not know that she take me, just look my silly face when i realized she took me in her video cell. Poorly, she did wrong rotate while she taking this video. Ha3x... so whenever i see this i must rotate my head bit (smile).

Say it before too late

Inspirational story for my close friend

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, falling in love with you was beyond my control"

It all started when I was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in California, I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together.
I would tell him all my secrets. He was very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kinda thing that I was feeling.
All through high school and even through graduation we're always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him.
I went home hurting because I didn't tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him. After graduation he got a job in New York, I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn't tell him how I felt. But I couldn't let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn't tell him what I had inside my heart.
Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him, I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. The big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness tears inside of me.
I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go on with my life. As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said: "meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things". I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn't breathe anymore.
Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this, I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about all his problem and his divorce. I fell in love again with him. When it came time for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together.
One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn't come that day. Again, I was broken-hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache. Asking questions why did this happen to a kind guy like him?
I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a diary that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn't know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew back to California. As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written.
The diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken-hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another. How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me. Finally, the diary ended when it said, "today I will tell her I love her". It was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart.

If you love someone, don't wait till tomorrow to tell him/her. Maybe that next day will never come at all.

Wedding Greeting Card

These are some wedding greeting card that i made last friday, generally my friends, ass.man even man asked me to make some greeting card for coming to their relation's invitiation e.g wedding card, birthday card, get well card, baby born card, love card, seasonal card, farewell card, and others. I just think how if i ask some tips for each card that i make hehehe...(kidding). Making cards is one of my hobby from other art and design hobbies.

Happy Birthday Putu

Happy Birthday Putu ...,may all wishes, hopes and plans may come true. Anyway we are in same ages now, but how older we are it doesn't effect our look right...hehehe. Keep your relation with him even we never know what will happen later, but as long as both of you are sure can face any obstacle there must be ways. Let dream of happiness always surrounding you, because it makes you stand since long.

note : on August 6, 2008 (Wednesday) in Warung Anglo at 5.30 PM, taken by me from my cell phone