Love is growth by process

Love is never ending story to tell and share. Even effected all part of human life. It will be nice if love create from two person that love each other. But, how if not create from two person in love, what will happen then ? ....

Just call him 'The Man' who had through this relation. What poeple say about love is too naive for him. If there is love, his GF will not leave him to marry with other just because her parents thought that she was ready and mature to become a wife. At that time, The man still wasn't ready for any word which is related in marry. What he thought only reach good position in his career, in that way he will gain more stable to marry afterall. The decision he had taken lead him become most mistaken decision he ever had. He got the position but he lost his beloved one.

Year by year are passed, bring him into 30 years old being executive manager but still alone. Until he agree to marry with someone that had chosen by his mother. At first he saw this girl, he didn't see any special even unique one. A avarage girl like mostly city girls. But there was something in her eyes told that she was a sincere, good heart, and patience.

First year ...

One day he just arrived from work, all he saw in that night was silent as not as usual. His wife usually waited him at terrace but this night he didn't see that. Slowly he walked to enter the house. He shocked until his breath seems was hold on his throat "Happy 1st annyversary ... " his wife stood with small candle on a cupcake. What was that ? he tried to think fast in flash black while he still surprised "Hmmh, you must forget, today, this month, one year ago we were married" she smiled even her heart pounded "Oh..., really ? sorry..., i don't know. But next time you should tell me at least i can bring or buy someething for you" He closed the door then smile bit. She shaked her head once then hug him "No, next time you must remember. Not because i want you remind, but because we must grateful that we still together"

Second year ...

He never remembered when the day was, the 2nd annyversary even he never remembered when her birthday was. But how come she remember all, the day when they married, his birthday, his parents birthday even his sister birthday. Deep inside his heart, he can't feel any love like other couple. What he feel to his wife like caring but not love. His love already death when his GF left him. She is a good wife, he know that for sure. But this marry like a fake. What marry called if he can't find any love feeling to his wife. But look at her, she looks like everything is okay. Even she might be felt the same too that this marry is fake.

Third Year ...

One day in company gathering where all the employee is gathered. Some of them brought their kid and wifes, other brought their parents and the rest brought their friends. She listened bit by bit the way they talked about his husband, it because his husband have promoted to become a Vice President. She knew that he still young but he was talented person in leading. But what they talked that he got the promotion just beause his father whose a shareholder company. She walked slowly close to her husband "Are you bored ?" he suddenly asked her, "Nop...is okay as long as i am beside you" she smiled and hug him. He wanted to laugh everytime he looked his wife act like that. Some of man walked closer toward them and started to talk that she can't understand, until she heard about this "Congratulation for your promoting, i wish i have father like your father". She looked her husband but how come he looked so calm when they seems joke to fool around him. "Your wife must be glad about your promoting", she smiled when other man said to her it was mean it was her chance to talk "Me ? oh ... about promoting Vice President position that talked fussy around. Off course i feel glad even gratefull or whatever is ... but is not becsue his promoting but because he became a good husband for me. And concern about his father, ya i feel thank because God create his son as like this, perfect enough for me". The two man suddenly silent. What that woman said really touched right after. The man can't believe that she can talk like that, this was a first time he felt someone act defensed like that for him. At first time he felt so happy that his wife beside him.

"You really have to go?" she asked again and again. "Ya, just a week, after that i will go home" he saw his wife in gloomy face. He never seen his face like that when he must to go in duty trip. "Be careful, you know for sure about that" she hug him and said again "Be careful"

Few hours after her husband went by car, she received a call "I am sorry mrs, but your husband got accident ...."

Fourth Year ...

Almost a year he can't walk as normal as usual. But his wife always beside him to help. "I am ready to go to office again" he talked in silent night. "It almost late, are you dreaming?" she sit on bed and listen what he will say later "Ya, i am ready. I can't controll my work from house always, i have to go to office tomorrow". "Are you ready enough, is okay if you aren't ready. You still can work from here, your secretary will tell you daily even in minute like usual she did". He nod his head then shaked it "I have to go, i will strong enough to step when you be with me, beside me"

Her breathe seems hold, it was a first time his husband said that with her. "What just did you tell to me ... that ... "

"I will strong enough to step when you be with me, beside me" he replied then smile. "You are the one who always beside me. Since the accident, i lied down like died, but see what you have done to me. You took after me, feeding me like a kid, washed my body like u have baby, changed my clothes like i didn't have any hands, took me every morning and afternoon on the wheelchair, brought me with wheelchair when u went to malls where everybody stared on me in pity, prayed for me in every your prayer, accompanied me to watch discovery channel even i knew you want to watch opera soap, you combed my hair, sprayed my favorite parfume after took bath, still awake in late even dawn when i want to drink or go to bathroom, drove me weherever to place i want to come ... oh my god you did all for me"

"It because i am your wife" she smiled with hold his hand then kissed his hand with cry

"No, it is not because you are my wife. But those all because there is love for me"

"Off course i love you, from the day after wedding party i try to love you even that time i don't know about you, who are you, where are you from, what you do, when you was born, why you want to accpet me as your wife and how i let my heart growth learn to love you"

He hug his wife in crying, he never realized his wife try so hard to learn for loving him. But what he did, he is too selfish all about himslef but never tried let love growth to his wife. "Thank you to let your heart love me. I am sorry ... i passed many years in useless"

"Dont feel sorry, i am the one who deserve say thank you because you want accept me as your wife, it all was started. Because you open chance for us start to love, even i know really take time for that"

"I love you ..., from the way you are did for me, i love you. My love growth in process, i love you ... the one who beside me to make me strong"

"Can you say that frequently" she laughed, "What i have to say in frequently?" he stared his wife while her small hand wipe off her tears, "That you love me" she smiled. "Ya, don't asked aboout that, i will say that" he replied her smile.

Ryza Febriasty

That Friends Are For

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend, Someone who changes your life just by being part of it, Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop, Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world, Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it

Miles Away

First Meet

They hug in tight like wont be apart again ‘Please let me … let me go’ the girl holds her breath deeply. She start to cry but hides her tears from the boy ‘You must forget, aren’t you? I have told you when we meet one day, I would hug you tight and maybe I can’t let that hug because I won’t feel far from you again’.
‘But you should let me go. I really have to go. I can miss my flight’ the girl takes her head up and sees the boy who hugs her in warmth. ‘I am sorry, I have to go now. It is our first meet but I pray we can meet again’. The boy wipes off the girl tears then smiles ‘good bye and I will pray the same too. I want to see your smile, we will meet again”. The girl replies his smile with softly and tender she kisses the boy forehead then whispers ‘good bye, see you … you know for sure what I feel, I am going to miss you”.

Second Meet

‘You have a beautiful country, thank you for being with me while I am here’ the boy smiles and the girl nods her head once. They hold hands each other through the path over the stars. This is the last night they meet in real physically. ‘Hmmh … for tomorrow, I can’t accompany you to airport’. The boy let his hand go and sees the girl with wonder what happen with her, why she said like that?. ‘Oh … ya, I understand you have to work. Is okay …’ he smiles then walks again. ‘No, it is not the reason’ the girl still standing in freezing ‘it is because …’ she stop talking and nods her head down.
‘It is because you are a kid, can’t stand see me go right? And you will cry like a kid’ the boy tease her with smile. The girl still freezing she feels her legs are too hard to walk and too heavy to step closer to him. In front of her eyes, there is a young boy who had placed her heart so far. She try to walk back of him and suddenly hugs his shoulder from back slowly ‘If I am there when you go tomorrow, I will hard to let you go and fade away from my eyes’.
The boy feels his heart beats faster ‘You afraid can’t let me, because you can’t be apart miles away from me, is like that?’.

He can feel the girl nods down over his back. ‘If it is like that, please think to marry with me then’

Third Meet

‘I count day by day to meet this chance … to meet you again’ the boy stares the girl looks like, he can see her face in red blush because he stares her a lot. ‘I dream to go this country and it become real when we make meet here. Thank you …’ the girl smiles. ‘I know everything about you, off course I know you really fond to this country because their drama right’ the boy starts to tease her.
Few minutes they still in silent, until the girls start to talk ‘I just think you forget me or maybe you come with someone that you will marry with’
‘Why you think I had forgotten you and how come you think I will ask someone else to marry with? Do you want me to do that’ the boy can’t understand why she can say like that.

Maybe you should do that’ the girl replies in softly voice, afraid he can hear that.
‘I can marry if I want, I ask you again … you want me to do that ?’
‘You can’t wait me all the long, it really waste your time, Look at you, you are still young and you really have to see any chances for you. Maybe you should let me go’ the girl stares him.
‘Speak is easily for you but act is hardly thing for me. Don’t you know I just want you …. I just want you’.

Next morning …
Their hotel rooms are side by side, the girl enters the boy room after he let she come. She already dressed up with flowery long sleeve blouse, ‘Give me more minutes to sleep, will you. It still too morning for me’ the girl smiles while seeing him sneaks slowly to his bed.
The girl opens the curtain in half, few minutes she realizes the sun start to shine brightly. She walks closely to bed with slowly, what she sees is the pure face as like his tender heart. He is too young but all his thought is mature enough. She smiles and touches his hair slowly, stares the awesome face front of her eyes. ‘is too good you are sleeping this time. So I can say anything I want without any worry you will hear’ she talks too softly.
‘I feel grateful because I had known you and had this feeling so far even God not makes you as mine. Wherever you are later, you know for sure I am still here and I hope you will remind same’ she touches his eyes and smiles ‘What will God decides later, I hope is good for us even God fit we can’t be together, but you are still in my heart. Hard to say I love you and good bye, because we never know what the future later’
She kisses his eyes softly and wipes of her tears over her eyes, she realizes she already cried. ‘What will be just let it be, remind me whenever you want. I had fallen in love to you’.

The day after miles apart them again …
The girl cell is ringing, the sms tone.
‘I already arrived. I miss you a lot, miss you smile, your hug, your hold, your touch, your kiss … on my eyes. I don’t know the future too. What I know I want be with you always. I won’t leave you. It can take time to meet again but I am sure the day will come. You know that I had fallen in love to you too’
The girl drawn in crying, all she said in that morning already recorded in his mind, he heard all what she said. ‘I miss you … too much …’ the tears are down but her face smiles.

Ryza Febriasty

Happy Birthday Yogi .... Sorry I'm Late

Happy birthday Yogi ..., so sorry i was late to say this. We are in same office and floor also, but really i forgot that July 12th is your birthday. As i remembered the 12th of July was on Sunday but, it should be Saturday ... sorry ....

I wish all your wishes may come true, really hope you will find good one as ur BF, do not reply the mistaken as past please ..., let the past forgotten even hard to forgive but do not let the lesson go.

As 25 this year may all the best you do, especially for your new boss. How could she place that seat. He..he..he.., let she talk and musch fussy. The important is enjoy your each day in office, make your job is fun things to do.

Gi, still be a cherfull girl as i know, keep smiling and joking around each day, you deserve to get the good one after pass the difficult phase in your life. Just be like the way you are.

For my beloved friend ...,

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I lack to post one thing in mind. Even i cant sleep well last night, always woke up more than twice, sit on bed, then saw surrounding even still same. Something feel inside, all is reflected in silent. This morning, the feeling is still same. Is there one place which and someone who can share with?.

There is bit korean from the song, here this the translation ; And when I want to see you Can’t say anything Can’t do anything I can’t do anything at all

Really U Just Need 3 Words ?

Boy: Do you really love me?
Girl: Of course I do.
Boy: I wanna hear you say it.
Girl: Should i?.
Boy: Why not?
Girl: Because...
Boy: I just want to hear you say it in words, what can i do then ?
Girl: Should I?
The Boy started to silent and said : Is okay, but you know that my feeling inside?
The two continued in silence and never started to discuss that again. Until the boy felt curious why this girl too hard to say that
Boy: Why?
Girl: Do you really want to know?
Boy: Yes (he nod his head then smile)
She sent hug emoticon then smile, "Because three words are not enough..., three words not enough to tell what i feel inside, three words never enough to describe what i feeling so far with you, but meet you, see you, your smile your voice is enough for me"
The boy drawned in silent, then he smiled "Thank you, you teach me how to love and what way to tell and describe the feeling inside ... thank you"