Puzzle

2.36 am finished from baking cookies, performed tahajud, read al quran, then prepared to sleep. I am writing to heal before go to bed. 

January 2, 2013. This late and still awake. Usually talked to him what he is doing and now it is not my portion anymore. I am happy for him, my dream. For whatever truth and the reason behind all of this i already send it to Allah because it is not my part anymore.

I already given everything, the heart, the feeling, the risk, the body and soul itself. I never can say no, to wonder how big, how deep, how wide, how tall and how long what is shaped of love itself. I am willing do all, with just a reason i believe "Because i love you".

I feel thrown away, but more over i believe Allah has the reasons for all. An angel not always has wings and a dream not always grant to be real. The rest which scatter to be a puzzle and make a shape along with times. Path life may different, but heart wont lie. Each smile and laugh, there will drip of tears which no end. Take everything you may need, reach anything you dream, wish and plan because everyone deserve it.

First day in 2014 we dont pass together.

The new year just come and we already separated. 

Not only in miles and times but also the live and life.

Is raining all day, do you still love rain ?

December just end, the month which plan be love month already a last month 

Januari 2014 just come, the new journey is starting

Suddenly remembered what you always said "I cant, really cant pass a day without you"

Suddenly remembered what i said "How i live without my dream" 

Look at me now. I still alive, for the struggle each day. Fall to wake turn in, i still alive after you answered "You have to. Please you have to"

Happy new year.