I ALWAYS LOVE TIME LIKE THIS. WHEN EVERYTHING IS DONE. THE ORDER BAKING, THE KITCHEN CLEAN, HAVING BATH, KHANSA IS SLEEPING, IPOD, WRITING BLOG AND JUST LAYING ON BED. WHAT MAKE MORE PERFECT IS ; RAINING OUTSIDE. SO MUCH LOVE THE SOUND OF RAINING. MY DREAM CALLED ME THIS DAWN. I JUST WAKE UP AND HE CALLED ME. SEEMED LIKE HE WAS BESIDE ME THAT TIME. SOMEHOW I CRIED THE FEELINGS WERE MIXED. I PAUSED MANY MANY TIMES WHILE TALKING, HID THE CRIED BUT HE KNEW IT. IT WAS GREAT TO KNOW HE WAS GOOD AND FINE. WISH I CAN HUG MY DREAM THAT TIME,

"MY ANGEL, CAN I ASK YOU SOMETHING ?" ASKED MY DREAM. "YES" I ANSWERED. "IN A WEEK, HOW MANY TIMES HE LOVE YOU ?" ASKED HIM TOWARDLY. "FROM 0 TO 1" I ANSWERED. "HAVE YOU REMEMBER ME ?" ASKED HIM. "ALWAYS. I ALWAYS DO. HAVE YOU KNOW I CRY AT BATH ROOM WHILE CLEAN MY SELF. I FEEL PAIN. I FEEL LIKE A BITCH. ALL THE FEELINGS JUST COME TO YOU. AND I JUST CRIED. I THINK HE SHOULD PAY ME SO HIGH. I AM EDUCATED, FULLY TRIMMED AND CLEAN" I PAUSED. AND MY DREAM JUST HUG ME AGAIN AND AGAIN. SO MANY WORDS OF 'HUG' ON SCREEN AND I JUST CRY. ALL THE FEELINGS COME TO MY DREAM WHO OWN ME TOP TO TOE AND HEART ITSELF. "HE NOT AS LIKE YOU. YOU ARE MY DREAM" I SAID. "YOU LOVE ME MORE THAN HIM ?" HE ASKED. "FOR ALL I HAVE DONE FOR YOU, WHAT DO YOU THINK ? LOVING YOU MORE THAN YOU THNK".
I AM SORRY, I CANT GO ON WRITING TO END THIS POST, FEEL PAIN INSIDE.