Lately I got some ordered for snack meeting in some offices. Beginning from 5, 20, and yesterday I got 250 boxes ordered. I didnt sleep all day then I got headache at last. My blood pressure must be so much low this time. I used to ask my dream to hug me when I feel not well like this. Oh god ... why I am crying rite now. This heart feels weary.

"Bunda, you are so beautiful" khansa always says like that whe we see to the mirror together. "Khansa very beautiful too" I always kiss her cheek, eyes, nose, chin and end with her lips like I always do to my dream. She usually smiles and says "I love you bunda" and I always say same "I love you khansa". Being a mother for me is a whole life commitment. I through very much hard moment when pregant, for 9 months I have to do heparyn injection twice a day to my body ; arms and thigh and passed so much difficult and risky opearation cesarean in maternity. Khansa always hugs me when sees me cry, she always tries making me smile and laugh. I love you so much Khansa.