No, I cant. He still haunting me. Whenever wake up at midnight, his face, voices and words still flashing my mind. I just cry to know how I risk my life to still be with him, cry to know how this heart still same as it is, cry to know how break this heart. Sometimes I just want to call him and say "my dream ... hate you. Hating the way you do at me. Hating you as much as I love you" then just cry on phone. But I never do that, I just afraid ... afraid .... afraid because I love my dream and kills me more.