Yesterday I dreamded of him, my dream. He became a prince. And just now I dreamed I became a wife of adam levine, maroon 5. What a really dream. I just took med for flu. I become so easily get flu and sore throat my doctor said my imune so easily effected from virus. Yes thats so true because my white blood is much bigger amount than the re blood. The white cells of blood take more part of red blood cells, the imune itself slowly taken by the white. I am afraid, off course I am afraid. Cant imagine how life will bring with condition like this.

I am not dreaming tonight. I wake up suddenly after heard something. Exactly remembered what it was "my angel, wake up ... I am here" in asecond maybe I opened my eyes and didnt find him,,my dream. No one whispered that. What it was about ? Am I too tired today until I got this hallucination ? Am I miss him that much until like this ? Or am I worry about him ? Or there something happen ? I just finished performed tahajud, prayed for good. I wont cry and never plan even has bit intention to cry. It just come out itself. Too tired with these tears.