It feels great to go back at home after few days stayed in hospital. Missing so much to post here. Missing so much to bake. My dream, I have something for him. It cant describe by words. I know, he doesn't like sweet too much. Even he not taste my cake yet, but I always make something for him. Just say this, the love cupcakes.

Are they beautiful my dream ? Want to taste it ? If we were so close, maybe you would have daily cake from me. Look now, I am smiling but crying aslike a kid. I hope my dream is fine there. Pray for good for my dream always.

There are still some orders, inshaallah I wont let down my customers. They are loving and so patient to wait. Inshaallah I am well enough to start baking again.

Almost a year he is not with me, my dream. Almost a year through each night without him. Almost a year the days seems empty without him. Almost a year I lost a person as placed to lean, share and love. When I said, how I live without my dream ? Then he said, you have to, please. I am not kind a person who have many sweet words, but he has many for me. One day I said, my dream I am afraid, please ... how if I loose all those sweet words then he said, my angel ... you wont ... never.
A year a go I was as like a shining star when it said, December ... I planned to meet you. I smiled and cried in same time when heard that. But the December I passed in broken into pieces.
Until I am writing here, I am passing the empty days, the tears, the longing and silent nights. Live with the memories with heart which keep and same. I already loose my man.