the pause

Is late here. Not sleep yet, just finish an order cake. I didnt take any order for almost a week. Because I got sick. And I didnt take many order because I am not well enough. What my dream is doing this time ? Is he remaining of me aslike I am doing rite now ? Is he missing me aslike I am feeling ritte now ? Maybe he is not. I am wondering he is beside me. Want him as always. And I dont know why I am crying, all the moments with him just come in mind which maybe cant repeat. He is my dream, but I feel he already too far to know.