"I was in detention they suddenly come and took me to jail n detention I spend 2 weeks in their now I am going back to pk forever n will get marry soon I'm sorry but pls dont email me or dont call dont text me anymore cuz I'm not the only one who using it anymore pls pray for me cuz I'm not in good condition I hav seen death very closely u r the best person n I'm not"

It might be the last mail from my dream. Read it rite after wake up in the morning. I paused aslike a dead person, the tears run down aslike the river. What bad dreamed I had that night was rite.

I just want to say "whatever you do, however you are, wherever you go whoever you will be, whenever time goes by, you always be my dream ... you already spaced this heart. I love you"

With very deeply sorry for the reader who routinely come to this blog, I need time to write and post in un-eventually time.

Happy mother's day mom. I love you so much. I already a mother so happy mother's day too for me. A mother able do anything for her children. I remember when my dream say this to me. "I cant choose what side between you or my mother anymore. I cant be like this anymore" that night as a woman, as a mother and as a person who loves him that much I say "so my dream choose what your mother ask " he said in disappointed "so you can see me with other girl" and I said "honestly I never can see you with anyone" my heart said I never can see him in hard moment. I let him, even it kills me slowly until today. He can find more perfect girl and new love but he never can find a love like mine.