Heart Attack

3.00 am tonight. I just finished to make choux vanilla pastry for order. Making kind of this pastry really need patience and concern. The result at the end will be so wordless. I can't wait for  next Tuesday to Thursday, i will take part for baking course again. This time i will take cake baking ; blackforest, brownies, sugar butter method, Swiss roll and layer butter cake. Baking really my escape, kitchen is always be the place. 

My dream called me this morning. Really just woke up and went down stair to take drink. Planned to mail him and the call just came. My fingers trembled to realize how come the connection so real. Heard his voice, knew he was fine, something which make me so relieved and glad. Wondered his face and looked. Realized how i miss him that much. Words can't describe how that much. So I just said it "My dream, I miss you. Miss you that much. Don't know is it rite or not. Just want to say I miss my dream". This person gives me so many heart attack. Everything is just surprised me, i am wordless about him. He is so something.

When i am no longer in this life, please still be good. I believe you will. The sun, the moon and the star.

Best In Me

Look what i just find on my YouTube playlist on Iphone, Best In Me from BLUE. OK, I am being honest here. I am not fans too much to this boyband. I never scream that loud as like as other girls who fond to death to boyband, screaming their names, screaming while their sing and fussy about their bodies and especially their good looking. But i really know ... know so much who like this band. My dream. I got this this official video on YouTube from him, so that's why i keep on my Iphone YouTube playlist.

I am listening now, singing, smiling, and remaining all beautiful memories with him, My dream. You bring out the best in me.

From the moment I met you I just knew you'd be mine. You touched my hand. And I knew that this was gonna be our time. I don't ever want to lose this feeling. I don't want to spend a moment apart. 'Cause you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do. That's why I'm by your side, (and that's why I love you). Every day that I'm here with you. I know that it feels right. And I've just got to be near you every day and every night. And you know that we belong together. It just had to be you and me